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Archive for March 2009

Can you remember the last time you did a random act of kindness? I have done a lot of different random acts. One of my favorites happened at my favorite restaurant. It was Mother’s Day 2007 and I sat down to my favorite skillet breakfast. I watched an elderly lady, a young mother and her new baby eating breakfast. Right then and there I decided to pay for their meal. I wrote something on a 3×5 index card and gave it to the waitress telling her not to give it to them until I had left. I can just imagine how surprised they were to receive a RAK. In this difficult  economic time that we are facing a little random act of kindness goes along way.

http://www.craftster.org/forum/index.php?topic=242287.0

http://www.actsofkindness.org/

http://www.helpothers.org/ideas.php

http://www.nameyourdreamassignment.com/the-ideas/ekizz/random-acts-of-kindness/

http://www.daretobeanangel.com/tasklist.php

All it takes it one little act to make a difference. Dare to be the one to make that difference 

We must be the change, we wish to see in the world.

~ Ghandi

I finally received a call back from the hospital about the labor doula program. I talked to the new coordinator for awhile. It’s sounds like it might be exactly what I am looking for. I will attend an informational meeting tomorrow night. I am looking forward in taking a new step in my career. When God closes one door, a new one opens. Yes slowly but surely I am finding my way once again. The coordinator said she felt that I had a lot to offer the program. I can’t wait. New beginnings for me.

http://www.dona.org/mothers/index.php

I watched you drown in a sea of despair so I threw you a lifeline. I sat there and watched you struggle to reach it. All you needed to do was to learn to swim and not sink once again. But once again I came to your rescue. I would never let you drown. I pulled the lifeline back a little and threw it back out to you. This time I watched you touch it. You were afraid to grab it. You thought to yourself…..Why should I grab it now I am just a failure in your eyes. This was my response to you……..

My Child you have never been a failure to me. I have watched you grow in your times of deepest hurt and despair. In those moments I was with you. In the darkest of night I stood watch over you. I watched you cry and I wiped away the tears. There is a lesson to be learned in the pain that you feel right now. Someday you will help others who have walked in your shoes too. Don’t ever think that nobody will understand you. Because I do. Just believe in me I tell you. Listen to my quiet whispers. I breathed life into you. The life you live is going to change at any moment. That’s what life is all about. Moments. This is just another moment to tell you…….I LOVE YOU. So I am throwing you a lifeline today. I hope that you catch it and feel my love surrounding you. YOU ARE MY BELOVED

Here’s a link to a great video……Enjoy!!!!

http://www.tangle.com/view_video.php?viewkey=bcd48cfc7bc2d106501f

My five year old son has been up for four hours now and already he has told me I love you 25 times. Every time he says those words, I respond I love you too. I guess he needs reassurance.  The next time he says I love you I will tell him…..I love you to infinity and beyond. My love for him is so immense. Sometimes I wonder if he truly understands just how much I love him.

Last night I watched two helicopters arrive and leave from the top of the hospital parking garage I used to work at. It brought back memories again. I remember on quiet nights peering out the window with the coworkers watching incoming helicopters arrive in the parking lot. I would always say……I could never be a flight nurse. I hate heights and turbulence. It seemed like an exciting job though being a flight nurse. Risky yet fulfilling. It takes a special nurse to be one. I could never be one. I am so glad there are other nurses willing to be the special one. I always watched from the distance never believing that I could be anything other than a Labor and Delivery nurse. Today I am not a nurse. I am watching from the outside looking in. Someday I’ll join the medical field once again. Today I am healing the wounds of my past. I watch from the distance. I wait so patiently. I am on my way on a journey of self discovery.