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Archive for May 2009

My youngest son recently graduated from preschool. I will always cherish the pictures that I took of him. My favorite is one that I don’t remember taking. He was walking down the aisle and reached out for his pa pa’s fingers. My son’s eyes were fixed on his pa pa’s. His pa pa was looking at the other preschoolers. In a roll of film there is always the worry of getting your head off from the shot. That only happened once thank god. I will have to crop the picture. There have been many times in my past when I have felt that I was out of the picture. That is because I was the one taking the picture. I only have one regret……… I didn’t get a picture of myself with my son’s teachers. There are many moments in life that occur. Some moments happen so quickly. Others seem to drag on forever. I learned one thing at preschool graduation……It only happens once. You cannot go back. You can only go forward. I am looking forward to capturing lots of moments between my son and both sets of his grandparents. Life comes and life goes. Time is ticking…………I hear another school bell ringing. Time for another Kodak moment.

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It is official. After surviving the 16 hour doula workshop, I will be a volunteer doula at the local hospital. It was an amazing weekend. Saturday was filled with watching videos and learning hands on massage techniques and comfort measures. On Sunday we role played and had a local newspaper there documenting what the doula program offers the local community. It will be a three part series. I hope the photographer got a lot of great pictures and stories from all of the new doulas. I have plenty of material to go through.  I hope to go to the Doula convention in August in Atlanta Georgia. For more information about the convention please go to WWW.DONA.org

Two weeks ago I helped out a lamaze teacher with her teen lamaze class. I assisted the class with showing the girls and their coaches different techniques to use when they are in labor. Comfort measures are one of the most important techniques to use through out labor. I guess I really made an impression on one of the young girls. She is due the first week in July and has requested me to be her doula. I have already started making her baby a special gift from me. The services I provide at the local hospital are on a volunteer basis at this time. Through word of mouth I hope to establish a large client base. I recently found out that a massage therapist I know is also taking classes to become a doula. I hope to pair up with her and start my own doula business with her some day.

I am on my way to healing my past hurts. It was a big step for me. I realized it wasn’t my fault last night. It felt good to release it out in the open. I had told the infamous story to two people. I let it go. I needed to in order to move on. I have been holding on to the hurt for almost three years. It has served it’s purpose. I needed to feel it in order to heal from it. Some day I will get the courage to email the person who changed my life forever. I will thank her for giving me the opportunity to have been a Labor and Delivery nurse for 17 years. Being a nurse has given me many experiences that I will carry on to my new job of being a labor doula. I hope to share many new birth stories with the women I will meet. I have been given a new lease on life and a new purpose.

The moment I held you in my arms. I knew you were mine. I felt an inner stirring. It was love at first sight. I felt the tears well up in my eyes the moment I saw you. It was hard work getting you into this world. I knew you were mine forever. Time and time again I felt that you were meant to be a part of my life. You were meant for me. I cherish the love we share each and every day. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about you my child. Each day that we have together is a blessing. I love you my little one.