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Posts Tagged ‘divorce

Sometimes the scariest part of starting a new journey is walking through life’s open door. One of the biggest doors that happened to me occurred two years ago when I quit my job. Two days later my husband filed for divorce. Life can be a wonderful journey of self discovery. I have learned that it’s not all about love but in loving yourself and what you are doing with pursuing a passion for living. I still continue my daily walk through life. I have my ups and downs. Today is a better day for me because I know that there is something better beyond life’s open door way.

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How aware are you of your surroundings? Do you just go about your daily life? Do you take the time to stop and smell the roses? This morning I noticed a hummingbird sipping nectar from the flowers in front of my house. It was the first time I saw one since moving in to the house in 1997. I realized then that I have missed out on a lot of things. I worked midnight shift for 17 years. I’d come home right away and sleep most of the time. Unless I was feeling restless or anxious about issues in my life. It was during those times that I can honestly say that I felt like running away from my life. I knew that I couldn’t. It just felt like my world was caving in. I couldn’t talk about my issues at work. My husband at the time would say …..I leave my problems at work. Why can’t you? In the blink of an eye, my life changed in Oct 2006 when I quit a very stressful job. I loved taking care of laboring women. But my job was eating away at my health and well being. My husband at the time was eating away at me. He was very abusive to me. He would distance himself from me and he would not speak more than 10 words a day to me. I knew that something had to change……I had to change. Since my divorce I have learned to stop, look, and listen to my surroundings. I have to take the time to enjoy my life for what it is. My life has changed in the blink of an eye.